November 9th, 2002 my first born son Keane Michael was born into this world at 19 1/2 weeks gestation, to small for this world to live here (to read the whole story about his life see my blog post from last year http://myboysmygreatestgiftsinlife.blogspot.com/2009/11/he-would-have-been-7-today.html). His short lived life has changed my life dramatically, and I have learned the lesson of what is important in this world. He was born at 6:12 in the evening weighing 8oz and very much alive :) ! They had told me over and over again for three days ( I went into the ER on November 6th) that he would not be born alive, that the meds they gave me were potent and that he could not survive it...But he did :) The Lord blessed us with the 6 hours he was here on earth.
Today, is a bitter sweet day for me, I'm grateful for the hours I had with my son, but sad that he was taken from us so quickly. I still long to know what his voice sounds like, I still wonder if he still would look exactly like his older brother, I still wonder what his favorite character would have been, would have been been a Thomas crazy boy like Gabriel? Or would he have loved dinasours like Matthias? Would he have been a great singer/sports player?
So many unanswered questions when you have to bury your child after birth. Even as I type this it still makes no sense to me as to why my son was taken to heaven so early. But the only hope I have is knowing that one day I will see him again, and all those questions will be answered for me.
I miss you terribly Keane Michael, you are loved and missed everyday by your family. Your short life has touched so many, and I will forever be grateful for the gift that the Lord gave me with you!
We miss you
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WITH THE ANGELS MY LOVE!
LOVE MOMMY
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2 comments:
Every year my heart breaks for you. I wish there were words I could say. ((hugs))
Im sorry if im intruding in any way but I read your beautiful letter to your son Keane. I couldn't help but cry as I felt your pain and suffering! You did hold an Angel in your arms for 6 hours and will hold him in your heart a life time until you are re-united once again in heaven where your son is ! God Bless and Keep you always strong and in his loving embrace <3
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