A Day to remember..........

November 9th, 2002 my first born son Keane Michael was born into this world at 19 1/2 weeks gestation,  to small for this world to live here (to read the whole story about his life see my blog post from last year http://myboysmygreatestgiftsinlife.blogspot.com/2009/11/he-would-have-been-7-today.html). His short lived life has changed my life dramatically, and I have learned the lesson of what is important in this world. He was born at 6:12 in the evening weighing 8oz and very much alive :) ! They had told me over and over again for three days ( I went into the ER on November 6th) that he would not be born alive, that the meds they gave me were potent and that he could not survive it...But he did :) The Lord blessed us with the 6 hours he was here on earth.

Even though it was 8 years ago, those memories are so fresh in my memory, I remember examining every inch of him so I could always remember what my precious little boy looked like, talking about how much he looked like his big brother Khallee, I remember everyone coming in to see him one by one. Each one of them held him and loved him, and then we baptised him, shortly after I remember being in alot of pain, but not wanting to rest, I only wanted to hold him as long as I could while he was here... I cried....... oh I cried...... the tears fell frequently from that day on.

We were blessed to have a beautiful funeral service for him graveside, and I remember that day too, its so physically heart wrenching, to walk away from the grave of your child, leaving them there. The only comfort I had was knowing that one day we would see each other again.

As a Mother I wish I knew what he looked like, I want to know what his laughter sounds like, how he talks and walks, if he was going to be good at playing sports, or a great singer... I long to know those things....For now I know the Lord is doing a great job of loving him, I just miss him so much, even 8 years later.

To my first born son ............. Keane, I love you with all my heart and soul, Happy Birthday Sweetie!! I hope you know how much your life is cherished. You touched so many lives, and have left footprints on my heart.I wish I could hug you and kiss you on your 8th birthday today, but until the day I can, please remember how you are loved today and always. I love you!

Happy birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy birthday Dear Keane...... May Jesus Bless you!!!

Mommy

Much love to you all!